Archives 2006

death note 2

2006-12-30T01:03:00.000+08:00

i have seen it ystd.
its freaking nice and i like the ending though its sad and those who do not deserve to die, died in the end... its really touching for how one can scarifice all for the other.

its a really nice script... one of the best

when i thought i have put them all behind

2006-12-30T00:59:00.000+08:00

actually i have not....
there are still lots of things that trigger memories
and these memories bring me pain

probably i haven't gotten over it.

ps: don't make me feel hopeful when you have none to give

equations

2006-12-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

christmas day + orchard road = Crazy!!!

its jam packed like sardines in a can.
but shopping was super uberly fun...
my mama bought me christmas present!
bought new clothes too...
but not sure if they can last till chinese new year, cos its still sometime away.
but i scat i got no time to buy le.
we'll see how... need new shoes, bag and more clothes!!!
MUUHAHA...

girls shall forever be girls.
there is no such thing as enough clothes.

out of hand

2006-12-24T14:18:00.000+08:00

when you thought you had control over things, you hadn't

ps: Business Plan due on 3 Jan and i have not even started. plus with lousy members, and a tutor who likes to find trouble with me..., wish me luck

anyone can explain?

2006-12-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

Jay Chou's MV: ????? (Twilight's Chapter Seven)

dun seem to understand the last part of the mv lehs...
anyone can understand.? pls tell me

dying...

2006-12-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

some many problems with MP.
chinese have a saying: yi(4) bo(1) wei(4) ping(2) yi(4) bo(1) you(4) qi(3)
loosely translated to english, it means one problem after another.

you say will die a not la?!

somemore so many projects.
and very "lan" group members

excuse me... u singaporean?

2006-12-17T15:04:00.000+08:00

YAH!
I AM A PURE BLOODED SINGAPOREAN...

NOT CHINA CHINESE or WHATSOEVER...
call me japanese, korean, abc or wad... but why CHINA???
do i look so low class or wad? or i look like a vixen (wu li jing) that works as some massage girl who offer "xtra" and steal ppl's husband.
DAMN! some people are just so blind...
dunno wads wrong with these people.

maybe one day someone will come up to me and ask...
excuse me... u african?

*buying colour contacts and wearing them again*

busy

2006-12-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

so busy...
like a bee...

milestone presentation was ystd
it was fine...
better den the first one...

mr jackson ask if we were nervous...
OF COURSE LA.
see the look on miss norshida's face...
it will scare the shit out of you.
i almost pee-ed in my shorts..

but mr jackson said we did fine...
so i guess its okay...

thank god.

somewhere over the rainbow

2006-11-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

somewhere over the rainbow
way up high
there's a land that i heard off
once in a lullaby.

ps: have you come to the point in life where whatever decision you make is so critical that it may affect your future? hais... tell me what should am i suppose to do now.

have you reach some point when you ask urself wad you really want

2006-11-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

all i want is happiness
pure happiness.
but somehow the things you really desire
are so hard to come by.

people always forget the very basic thing they are searching for.
often, wanting something very simple
turns out to be greed for something bigger
and they start to lose their direction

sometimes wanting something simple
can make people scarifice everything for it.

pain in the ass

2006-11-20T18:42:00.000+08:00

CHEE BYE!
my tutor is such a asshole.
fuck him...

he likes to find trouble in me.
today he "locked" my access to the computer because i was surfing other sites when i am not suppose to.
freak lo...
its not only me
the whole class is practically doing the same.
why don't lock theirs but onli mine.
shit you!

cannot tahan anymore lo.
he's getting on my nerves

my fren told me
because he likes me.
MY FOOT!
i think he "likes" me would be more appropriate.

whichever,
he likes or "likes" me to the core
'wo(3) dan(1) dang(1) bu(4) qi(3)" - i don't deserve your liking for me.

SHIT HIM LA!

something meaningful.

2006-11-18T16:37:00.000+08:00

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away.

suzuki swift.

2006-11-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

i saw a metallic pink suzuki swift today...
its super uber freakingly nice!

gosh!
cannot find the picture online.
probably the owner repainted the car.
its SO so so so nice...

speaking of pink.
i got red and pink braces
and i think its damn nice too.
muhahaha...
next appt would be few days b4 christmas.
gonna get the christmas colour.

pissed

2006-11-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

i am so damn pissed off recently.
first was my prac tech tutor...
dunno wad is his fucking problem lo.
he dun seem to get what i say!...
damn...

second is that freaking polyclinic doctor.
so very no doctor ethics de lo.
anyhow anyhow treat patient de...
C***B**.

tomolo MP lesson.
will be even pissed tomolo.

its called the chain effect.
when one thing makes u pissed...
more things will follow to make you even pissed off.

argh!
when will things get better?.
i cannot wait for thursday to come.
can go change brace colour.
see that handsome doctor next door.
muhahahaaaaa..

that will end the pissed off mood.
i am a very easily contented girl.
got handsome doctor to see
will make my day real bright and happy

go toilet to pee...

illusionist

2006-11-12T15:03:00.000+08:00

never be fooled by someone's character.
they may be a very happy person but inside they are in pain

its a illusion.
the highest form of illusion
that even the most powerful illusionist cannot perform

it can only be done by someone who is dying inside.

ps: how to appreciate the goodness in life when one never tasted goodness before?

overseas education

2006-11-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

attended the further education talk today.
really spark my interest to go overseas for further education.
Australia would be my first choice.
if possible would like to study hospitality and tourism (or hotel management)
also probably nursing or health science.

haven spoken to mama about it yet
but i think she will support me if i want
most importantly, i need to be sure if i can meet their entry requirements.
hahaha...

jia you ba!

Cyworld

2006-11-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

click HERE

welcome to my cyworld...
my photo album...

nice ma?

stress arhs...
presentation today and i think we cocked up the whole thing.
need to redo and handed it in today already...
but i think its still crap.

damn...
i hate MP.

Death Note

2006-11-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

the whole story is written by a genius. its all i can say.
very interesting and full of surprises.
thats what i think la... or maybe because i am too stupid to think like the script writer

anyway its base on a manga (comic) in japan
and they have another part to it which tentatively will be out on Dec 28 2006 name: "Death Note: The Last Name"

no wonder the ending for this movie is like hanging in the air.
i think the secong movie will unveil everything.
i hope so.

the "L" and Light Yagami are damn smart in the show lo...
the writer for the comic and movie is a genius man...

its just a work of a genius.
or maybe its because i am plain stupid.

haha

ps: for more info - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_note

Death Note: The Last Name - Trailer

Dead or Alive (D.O.A)

2006-10-31T22:14:00.000+08:00

watched D.O.A today.
its freakingly nice...
very action pack la...
but story line is predictable one.

but the girls inside are hot
and the guys inside are oso hot.
especially the japanese guy whom is with the princess kasumi.

if you play D.O.A, i think you will like the show.
and i think i am good at D.O.A 4, at least so far no one has beaten me to it yet.

25 million years

2006-10-30T10:39:00.000+08:00

stars have their own cycle
humans too, have their own cycle - 25 million years
by that time, you will meet again the same person you have met 25 million years ago
will our path cross again 25 million years later?

ps:
till that time,
i doubt we will ever meet again.
i'll see you again
25 million years later.

funny people do funny things

2006-10-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

dunno why recently i like to think of extreme things to do
hahaha...

for example,
i want to pierce my nose and navel.
den think of having a tattoo (which i think i drive my mum to her grave)

wads wrong with me?
haha

ps: you gave me the best and the worse of life, i will bury all these deep in my heart, so that i can never unearth them anymore. it will all be history, nothing but memories. i have learnt things i never knew, and let me found things that are better worth living for which i never knew existed. probably its time i remove the guaze from my wound and start to feel and accept the pain. only then these will be fully buried.

thank god

2006-10-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

wah... go pai pai really helped...

my celebrity look alikes...

god... i look like a super star

ps: i will be more religious

bad things always happen together

2006-10-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

major project is gonna kill me soon.
why are there always so many problems to our project?!
den when things seem so bad,
had a quarrel with my mum,
its my fault partially but haiz... she don't understand how i feel

i hate things now..
i hate my life
i would get depression soon if things continue to go downhill

something more lighthearted though...

JU JI HOON!
again...

and the cast of Goong.
cannot say how much i like the show.

Chaegyung - Crown Princess

Shin - Crown Prince

Yul - Second in line to the throne

Hyo-rin - Crown Prince ex-gf

and finally the Ju Ji Hoon...
his figure is like so damn hot!
see and you will noe why i say it...

HOT RIGHT!!! SO NICE!

ps: its my dreams that are keeping me going.

darn

2006-10-25T10:02:00.000+08:00

sch started.
feel the stress now.

vbus isn't working.
proposal due next monday and its not even half way there yet.

its isn't my week.

i cannot breathe

2006-10-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

when someone hounds u like mad...
i cannot breathe...
its choking.

darn.

the guy i like

2006-10-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

i like my guy to me like Shin in Goong

looks cool and very cold
but inside he is warm...
and when he smiles, it will take your breathe away.

haha
if he has his perfect model figure..
i would be the best... haha

*ps: jasmine oso like shin... welcome aboard jas...

one night stand

2006-10-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

i feel rather ok with it...
how about you?

ps: I LOVE JU JI HOON SO MUCH... His figure is damn hot and it turns me on! hahhaa... fyi, he is the crown prince in the show Goong who married the commoner girl

dreams.. whats urs?

2006-10-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

my dream...
it used to be with you...
but now... things have changed
and i have new dreams and plans for myself.

get into university.
go abroad for further education
experience living in other countries

these are dreams that i hope to accomplish before i die. the third one is the one i always yearn for. there are so many countries i want to experience. unless i meet someone worthy if not until then, i would not give up my dreams.

*marrying a doctor is also one of my biggest and silliest dream, but i will not stop dreaming about it... hehe*

the story of a girl and the kite

2006-10-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

there was a girl
standing in the vast field
holding on to a kite

despite having so many kites in the sky
she still chose to hold that particular kite.

she held it tighly in her hands
afraid that it might fly away

sometime later,
her hands were tangled by the string of the kite,
but she refuse to let go

the strings got tangled to tightly that it cut her hands
she bled.
but still she refuse to let go
even though it was so painful

finally she had no choice
she let go.

her hands were free
and her wounds are starting to heal
though still painful but finally she could breathe for the the first time.

let go of everything and you will receive what you have always wanted.
let go and and everything will be within your reach.

wishing stairs & more

2006-10-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

*warning... lotsa foto*

remember the movie wishing stairs?

here is the sypnosis:
The legend goes that if you climb the twenty eight steps leading up to the school dorimtory, counting each step aloud, and find a twenty ninth, a spirit will appear and grant you a wish.

The movie takes place in a girl's art school and focuses on two friends studying ballet, however their friendship soon turns sour when they find themselves competing for a single spot in a Russian ballet school. Yun Ji-seong played by Sung Ji Hyo, remembering the old legend of the "Wishing Stairs" wishes for a place in the prestigious ballet school, and in a shocking turn of events, she gets it, at the cost of her best friend, Kim So-hie's life. However, it's only when the extremely odd character of Eom Hye-ju wishes the dead girl back, that an unspeakable evil is released.

the girl (sung ji hyo) inside Wishing Stairs who acted as Yun Ji Seong is the girl "Xiao Ling" in Goong!

Sung Ji Hyo as Yun Ji Seong - Wishing Stairs

Sung Ji Hyo as Xiao Ling - Goong:

she is pretty but like the crown princess more!

so cute! and adorable

actually i cannot decide whom i like most... i love them all!

i have stop feeling

2006-10-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

because if i feel,
the pain will be unbearable.

i rather be "feelingless"
than to feel such pain.

trying to feel them bit by bit.

Joo Ji Hoon

2006-10-15T17:16:00.000+08:00

he is very very very cute...

i am so in love with him

2006-10-15T17:03:00.000+08:00

Joo Ji Hoon!
who are you thinking?

he is so hunky.
so damn tall (187cm)
so cool (he is a model)
so hot (he got a nice bod)
he is so cute!

his pic..

i love the cast of Goong.
they are all so nice...

sweetest thing on earth

the crown princess holding "Alfred" the bear

time passed and people have changed.

2006-10-14T16:23:00.000+08:00

some have become prettier some became uglier
physically and mentally.

for me
i have changed too.

in the past,
i am very perculiar of how people think and view me,
so i always mask myself to be how i want them to think and view me

now,
to me views of people dun really matter annymore,
but more importantly how i want my life to be,
the way i want it to be.

mature?
i think i am growing old.

it wasn't that difficult afterall

2006-10-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

i wasn't difficult.
and i did not expect myself to be coping so well.

hehe... things are fine.
if i can play mahjong now, means i am fine. really fine.

i love the way i am now
carefree and no worries.

i am one happy girl.

stupid/silly

2006-10-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

stupid... so stupid...

silly... very silly

i feel so stupid and silly....

but it is not because of it...

dun worry... everything is well and fine, things are coping well, i feel so relief.
and i learnt something which i never once known.

i look so stupid...

2006-10-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

serious

how terrible life can be?

2006-10-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

VERY!

everything sucks...
i dun wanna see, hear or feel
cos everything ard me sucks...

i just wanna sit and waste myself away...
i just die..

if things can change,
i wanna change my life

y is everyone leading a happy life and i am suffering
god is just so unfair.

my life is just so unfair.

everywhere in me feels so painful
but the pain in my heart is the one that is killing me..

i dunno wad is happening to me and my life

how i hope everything in my life is perfect.
but whose life is perfect. NONE.
but mine is very imperfect.

is it because of me or is it fate
i dun have high expectations for life.
i just wan to be happy
but happiness doesn't seem to knock on my door anymore.
depression has took over happiness.

sucks.
no words can describe how i feel.

i dunno how to end everything and find the happiness which is long gone.

SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS.
SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS.
SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS.
SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS.

SUCKS.

that probably how sucky my life is

broke...

2006-10-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

i am as poor as a church mouse le...
my mum confiscated my debit card... sobs...
she said i spend too much already.
but i spend what i earn ma
but erm..
i spend more than i earn la...
haha...

i am left with 20 bucks for to last me two weeks...
it will be a challenge
a huge challenge

wish me luck...
hope i survive it

memo

2006-10-08T17:53:00.000+08:00

i can't believe time pass so fast...
faster den ferrari
in another 2 weeks time... i will be back in school
*yucks*

haze was quite bad for the past few days...
psi hit the highest for this year - 150 !!
caught the "haze bug"
dry eyes, dry throat, slight cough and breathing difficulties...
so my mooncake festival (eunice told me is latern festival in the end i found out it was suppose to be mid-autumn, how stupid) ended up watching vcd at home (can't eat mooncake, no moon to see, cannot go out)...
the ppl in indonesia are causing very serious pollution
burning forest... for? (i oso dunno - mum say was for vegetation purpose)
siao!
if they continue burning they will burn up the whole of indonesia...
wahaha..
is it possible?

Goong - Princess Time

2006-10-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

watching the korean show Goong - Princess Time
very nice... and funny...
channel u haven start yet... but if start le i reccomend u all to see..
its a must see

haze

2006-10-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

i feel like i am in genting...
so hazy...

the only thing is the air there is cold while the air here is choking...

it will end eventually

2006-10-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

i will end everything by this year.
i need to move on.
things are getting really draggy
and its wasting my time

i have let go of so many opportunities because of him
its time let go and move on

it will end...
everything will end...

clear my doubts and questions once and for all
if i dun get the answer i want, i will move on

for the time being
i will still be missing you

no more sorry

2006-10-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

i have heard your sorries for uncountable time...
its enough to fill up a olympic size pool...

i don't want and don't wish to hear them anymore...

i do not know whether to believe all the excuses you have given
but i always chose to do so

i am so stupid
but as long as i can get the answer i that i have always wanted,
anything is okay for me...

besides its not the first time,
and i think i wun be the last.
there will be more to come

but i believe i will have the answer i have always desired.

make my beliefs true...

haiz

2006-10-03T13:52:00.000+08:00

i am nothing but a stupid asshole
to be accurate i am nothing but a self deceiving stupid asshole

depression is crawling in...
i can sense it..

she's done it again

2006-10-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

opps she did it again...

when she told me to be mentally prepared for the news she is telling me later, i got this gut feeling already...
wasn't very shock like the first time but still a little traumatised...
haha...

like what she say, being her jie mei need to learn how to accept shocking news...

nothing much to say this time but rather its up to them to decide on what to do lo...

movies...

2006-10-01T12:42:00.000+08:00

watched the Banquet and Haunted Apartment recently...
they are rather good

For Banquet, their scene are super duper nice and the artistic effects were superb...
as for storyline, a bit confusing and its ending sucks.
leaving you with a lot of "huh?" and question marks.
to rate it, i would give like 3 stars out of 5

Haunted Apartment,
funny horror movie. there isn't much fear factor to it but some parts are rather kan cheong.
like all horror movies, the last part will aways reveal the cause, and i think it is rather sad.
For the last scene, it is really damn errie... " i will always be with you... "
to rate i would give like 2 and a half la... cos really dun feel scary other than some nervous and gross part. which is very little...

i think my dream will be dashed

2006-09-30T18:14:00.000+08:00

i have calculated my GPA...

for my final semester... if i score Bs for all subject.. the maximum GPA i can get would be 2.2 onli...
which means i may not get into NUS.
eunice told me to go to uni you have to have at least 2.5 to 3.0 GPA Grade.
and the maximum i can get is only 2.2

its maximum which means i can get even lower than that...
the only way i can get more than that is to score higher than Bs for all my subjects...
even if i scored more than Bs for all my subject i would still no be able to get 2.5
unless i get all distinctions...
which is like hahaha...
IMPOSSIBLE

darn.. i should have work harder in year 1 (regrets)

ps: life is full of regrets. now i have one regret. hope i would not have more unless i cherish all the chances i have.

i will not give up hope of going into NUS. there may still be chances. so gotta work hard. put in effort and leave the rest to god.

new skin

2006-09-30T16:26:00.000+08:00

changed to a new skin...

glad to see you again...

everything is fine...
or so to say..

hope everything can go on well...

memo

2006-09-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

its high time to head for the gym...
time to do some toning... if not going flabby soon

ps: bought a tube top at Heartland Mall... $29.90.. must save money... if not going broke...

missing you: 2 days

i wish

2006-09-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

for everything to go smoothly...
be it relationship or project...

i could see you soon
hear your voice... see your smile...
hold your hands...

for more money...
a nice part time job...
start giving tuition...

for all my dreams above to come true...

ps: the feeling gets stronger everyday... and i cannot help but fall deeper... let me walk into your world... your heart... your life...

i need a life...

2006-09-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

i think this is one of the worst period of my life...

major project is killing me...
somethings are bothering me...

life is bleak...
i cannot see my future (anyway who can?)

lacking in luck...
go all the religious places to pray...(kaisu)

if things continue to go down hill
i think i will go crazy...
its too stressful...

ARGHS!

my onli source of motivation is you...
please be wif me...
please gif me the answer that i have always wanted...

cash strap

2006-09-25T22:50:00.000+08:00

i need money... desperately...

never wear a hat that is too big for your head

2006-09-23T13:35:00.000+08:00

credit cards are the worse invention that mankind had invent...
especially when used by people who are so Bu(4) Zi(1) Liang(4) Li(4) and want to act like they are from the higher social class...

*PIU!*

my 4th uncle (mum's younger brother)... he and his stupid wife...
owe the credit card company $10,000+...
and now the credit card company is asking my another aunt to pay for his debts as he has gone MIA (missing in action) and she is the guarantor... then my poor aunt is also in financial difficulty...
so my mum has to step in to help her pay my idiotic uncle's dirty debt...

and mind you... this is not the first time she has pay for his debt...
over the past 3 years or so... my mother had to fork out close to 10k ($10,000) to pay for his credit card debt, car loans and all sorts of nonsense...

what angered me most is he lives in a apartment and owns a MPV which is now towed away...
on the outside, he and his family looks like any other very can-do family... but in terms of cash flow... i think his family is even poorer then me... his kids are the innocent one being pulled into a whirlwind of debts which my mum pity alot... but to me... his kids are all the same as him and his wife... like father like son... all are ai(4) mu(4) xu(1) rong(2)...
his got 3 kids... the eldest is in sec sch... anf d you know what.. he owns a PDA!!
what the f**k... why does a sec sch boy needs a PDA for?! waste money right?

KNS...

its not then i am jealous with them... what for should i... cause i think my account alone has more money then his already...
what i want to say is that... live within your own means lo... don't spend on things which you cannot afford and then use the future money to pay for them... don't let cash flow to tight... almost all your salary goes into paying your whatever loans you have.. cause if one day you loose you job... all these loans and their interest will be enough to send you off the edge...

i feel so disgusted by what he and his family did... the harm they have done to the my family and my other relatives... the amount they gave him to pay off his unreasonable loans cannot be accounted for... and i remember last year when i just had my operation and was recuperating at home, they came over in the name of "visiting" me to "borrow" (which they never return a single cent b4) money from my mum... but my mum refuse and told my other uncle which was so angry that he came right down to my house to gave him a good leashing... and his wife said something in the end like: "we will break all contact with you if you refuse to lend us money"... and my mum retorted like: "as if we want you as a relative, you only bring shame to us"
KNS...
i wonder why they got the cheek to do this... how can someone be so low-down... if i got a chance to see them, i would tell them: "even if you look so rich and loaded outside, inside you are nothing but a filthy piece of rag, worthless and full of shit which deserve no pity. I despise you, for what you did and will mock at your stupidity and shallowness. Hope your children or rather my cousins would not grow up being so shallow like you do. I feel so sorry for the society, for having such people like you. She(4) Hui(4) De(4) Bai(4) Lei(4). Failure of the society"

ps:according to my mum who is equally 3-8 as me... the family has other interesting scandals which... *clear throat* are very juicy... can fight with the wan bao's headlines... not very convenient to say here la...

sure lose one la

2006-09-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

its a sure lose bet...
cause i think i already know the final answer...

its an woman's intution...
and it can never be wrong...

but i hope it will be wrong this time
very wrong...

i am shaking inside...
as the day come closer...
closer to the truth...
to the answer that i have been always seeking for

i just hope...
its the answer i want
and my intution...
let it be wrong...

i want your
YES!

the challenge is set

2006-09-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

its a challenge that will turn our life around...
the truth will be unveil...

my heart is pounding...
its racing...

i'm excited...
nervous...

the future is uncertain
unknown to me and you...

its our challenge for each other...
together... we will change everything...
all the best to you and me

stop running

2006-09-20T16:28:00.000+08:00

stop running away... i hate that

i hate how things are turning out to be

2006-09-19T15:32:00.000+08:00

- as mentioned above -

memo

2006-09-19T15:26:00.000+08:00

happiness: the quality or state of being happy

in my eyes, i don't see happiness
in my life, happiness doesn't exist

---

never in my life am i so sure about things...
its you that i want...
nothing but you...

i am starting to be obsessive...

and going crazy too...

afraid...

2006-09-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

i have posted recently a verse from the bible:

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34

i have tried to stop worrying...
but obviously failed...

these worries...
they are really killing me... soon...

thoughts for the day:
i am afraid...
afraid of tommorrow...
afraid of the days to come...
afraid of loosing the chance...
afraid of my life...
afraid of myself...
afraid of what the future holds...
just
VERY AFRAID OF EVERYTHING...

on a breaking point...

2006-09-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

my emotions are walking on a thin thread...
whenever i think about things...
i shiver in fear...
my thoughts are freaking me out...
i am scared at my sudden thoughts of it
and it makes me shit in my pants...

to me honest...
i starting to have suicidal thoughts...
i don't know why...
when things are fine...
these thoughts scare the hell out of me...
when i am depress...
these thoughts are my only escape from the harsh reality of the world...

its not about HIM...
its other things...

i don't know if i can last that long...
i am afraid...
i am afraid if i go bonkers suddenly...
and not live to see tommorrow...

it scaring me out...

everything is just so stresful...

school...
MP (major project) is killing me....

family...
my mum is a little unstable oso...
probably menopause when hormones are imbalance... Haha...

i am gald i can still joke around now...

how about tommorrow?

will i still crack a joke or two...
or maybe none...
and never again...

ps: if i ever die... my only regret is letting many chances of telling you how i feel about you slip away from me... i hate myself for that...

stupidity

2006-09-12T08:18:00.000+08:00

if curiousity killed the cat...
stupidity will kill me soon...

i dunno why on earth i am making myself suffer... when i got a good and nice set of teeth...
not so perfect but still not bad...
WHY ON BLOODY EARTH DID I GO AND MAKE BRACES!!!

DAMN...

screw my stupidity...

i noe i said ystd... for beauty, its all worth it...
FUCK...

i am in pain...
not actually pain but the aching feeling is enough to make someone very sane go insane...

cannot slp the whole night...
can't eat...
can't brush my teeth properly...
lastly... i cannot kiss... haha (not funny)

thought braces can help me with my diet but its helping too much!
by the rate i go... 1kg a day... by the end of the week...
i will be like bamboo...
skinny...
good for looking but not good for long term...

looking at the metal brackets on your teeth
they seem harmless...
but the pain they cause you...
you can never imagine...

if i had imagine... maybe i would not have done it...

its either i am stupid or real stupid...

my frens... if you wan to do braces...
think... consider...
if you think about the future its worth but if you consider all the pain and agony you will need to go through... hai...

i am not regretting... still thinking for the long term... but when you cannot think straight now... everything seems so lousy...

ps: i got orange braces... and they said is the IN colour... screw them... in or not in... i am going INSANE

stupid things i do when i am bored...

2006-09-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

You Are a Flawless Beauty!

When it comes to beauty, you spare no expense - and it shows
You're the kind of woman a man would launch a thousand ships for
It's hard for anyone to beat you in the beauty department
But remember, it's okay to show a flaw or too - you've got plenty to spare

What Type of Beauty Are You?

i am so flattered!

You Are 59% Bitchy

Generally, you're an average woman, with average moods. But sometimes... well, watch out!
Sometimes, you let your mean side get the better of you. And you enjoy every minute of it.

How Bitchy Are You?

where has all the bitchy-ness in me gone to?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!
Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.
If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.
You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

haha...

You Are an Intense Kisser

When you kiss, it's deep and powerful

You don't take kissing lightly

Your kisses always have meaning

And they always make your head spin

What's Your Kissing Style?

whao!

hope he reads it!

Your Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua

Your energy: deep

Your season: winter

Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion.
You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul.
A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem.
You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

What Element Are You?

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What Color Is Your Aura?

but for beauty is all worth it...

2006-09-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

for future sake...
i must REN(4)...

in pain now...
can't eat...

but for beauty...
its all worth it...

my mum said...
waste money to let urself suffer...

but for beauty...
its all worth it...

even simple things like egg...
looks like a delicacy which i cannot eat...

but for beauty...
its all worth it...

liquid diet... milk... cereals... and soup...
are now wad i eat...

but for beauty...
its all worth it...

suffer now and enjoy the fruits later...

ps: even if i have the courage to kiss you... i can't... muhahaha

MSN DOWN...
SUCKS...

all i need to do is ask... but i rather not...

2006-09-11T09:52:00.000+08:00

have you ever wanted something so badly...
tried very hard to get it...
but you just couldn't...

the feeling is nasty isn't it?
i noe it..
i have this feeling too...

when you have and get everything you want almost too easily...
its not easy coping with this feeling...

maybe its because i got everything i want so easily that i was made to noe this feeling...
this feeling that i have seldom ever felt in life...

now i noe this feeling
i noe the feeling...
unpleasant...
nothing but agony...

can i get what i want...
what i really desire...
the thing or rather the person i wanted most...

can i?
pretty please...

you said...
all i have to do is ask...
but do i get the answer i want when i ask?
am i guaranteed with the answer i want..

risk... is what you would say again...
what if...
its a hard price to pay... and not getting the answer i want...
if thats the case...
i rather bear the agony and unpleasant feeling
than putting everything in jeopardy...

putting the only HOPE i have... in jeopardy...

at least... i still have HOPE now...
if i asked and do not get what i want...
i have NOTHING left ... not even a glimpse of HOPE...

HOPE is enough to keep everything in my world going...
enough to make me carry that feeling...

till i am ready... (when will the day come?)

Matthew 6:34

2006-09-11T09:13:00.000+08:00

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:34

i need the courage

2006-09-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

i need the courage..

the courage to hold your hands

the courage to kiss you

and the courage...

to say "I Love You"

Singapore Fireworks Festival 2006

2006-09-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

As promise quite sometime ago... Here are the video of the fireworks that i recorded...

1. Italy... Excellent...

2. Singapore... not available due to lousy view...

3. New Caledonia... One of the best

4. France... Excellent too...

have fun viewing...

Aries - Scorpio (Compatibility Test)

2006-09-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

Aries is ME!
Scorpio is HIM!

Here its goes...

When Aries and Scorpio come together in a love match, it can be the kind of relationship where they both wonder how they ever managed apart. Both Signs love power and they can achieve just about anything -- as long as they learn to share the spotlight. Scorpio is very focused; once they set their sights on Aries, Aries is most likely powerless to resist! Scorpio has a deeper and more complex devotion to this relationship than does Aries.

These two Signs tend to engage in heavy, heated arguments. Their connection is highly passionate and often argumentative, because both partners have jealous tendencies. Scorpio tends to be more patient, but is also more possessive than Aries -- and can lash out (with that Scorpion sting!) when their feelings get hurt. Despite their differences in emotional involvement, both partners love risk and taking chances; this is not a boring relationship! Aries and Scorpio can have lots of adventures together. They may have trouble understanding one another --
Aries is a true extrovert, totally up-front and open, while Scorpio is more inward, emotional and, at times, manipulative. Sometimes a truce is necessary to keep things running smoothly!

Aries and Scorpio are both ruled by the Planet Mars (Passion), and Scorpio is also ruled by Pluto (Power). When two people with Mars's energy come together, it's like two soldiers on a battlefield -- they're either allies or deadly enemies. Mars also represents passion, so Aries and Scorpio tend to have an exciting time together (both in the bedroom and out of it!). Arguments are normal in such a challenge-oriented couple -- and making up is definitely something to look forward to! Pluto adds extra intensity to this dynamic.

Aries is a Fire Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. These two elements can be a great combination if they work together, combining emotion and physical action to get things done. Scorpio is a strategist, and can help Aries slow down and learn how to plan battles before jumping into them. Aries teaches Scorpio to let go and move on when their efforts are thwarted. However, Water can also put out a Fire, and Scorpio's tendency toward emotional manipulation has that effect on Aries -- it's too much Water dampening Aries's enthusiasm. Conversely, too much Fire makes Water evaporate away; when under emotional stress, Scorpio can become vindictive. It's essential for Aries and Scorpio to work together, not against one another.

Aries is a Cardinal Sign and Scorpio is a Fixed Sign. Aries can teach Scorpio about spontaneity -- doing things just for the experience, rather than always having an agenda in mind. Scorpio can help teach Aries to stabilize and finish things rather than always jumping into new projects without completing what's already on the table. When they can understand that they're both loyal and devoted to one another, they can both be the boss -- Aries as the initiator and Scorpio as the emotional leader.

What's the best aspect of the Aries-Scorpio relationship? The power of their combined forces. They're both winners and they won't give up, making theirs a relationship that never settles for second best.

yeah... i am always the initiator...

how

2006-09-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

you are the one that keeps the flame in me burning...
you are the one that keeps me going...
you are the one that i cannot live without...

how do i live without you...

i hate myself for missing you so much...
but you cannot blame me...
cos its been a long time since i have seen you...

i have alot of things to say...
but when i see you..
i know nothing will come out from my mouth...
hais...

tell me what to do
tell me how...
teach me how...

HOW?!

roller coaster ride

2006-09-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

hai...
been feeling pretty bad these few days...
had been through an emotional roller coaster...
but it is more or less over...

felt very depress for the past few days bcos of some freaking problems which i think will drag on for quite sometime...
oso... there are very happy moments oso...
hehe...
those who noe me well de...
haha... no need to say oso will noe wad happen to make me feel over the moon...

my emotion now is more stable and i am feeling much better... but still not at its very best...
hope things would go smoothly... then...
i would be the happiest girl on earth..
hahaa

if you fail to dream... you fail to live

kelly: since i stop dreaming, i have stop living

YES YES YES

2006-09-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

YES YES YES YES YES

am i a step closer? i hope so

mask

2006-08-31T08:42:00.000+08:00

behind that thick paint on a clown's face...
hides a story of bitterness and sorrow...
which is not known to the world...

when the paint is on...
its time to cover all sorrow and bitterness...
its time to bring laughther into the life of others...
but when the paint is remove...
who shall bring joy to their life?

i am tired...
tired of everything..

when you think you have everything... you actually have nothing...
it looks like i've got all the things i wan... but actually i have none..
whats the point of having so many things when you dun have the basics to keep you moving...

i have very important things in my life missing...
happiness
love

i have lost happiness a long time ago... and i still cannot find them...
love... i did not lost love... how can you lost something when you did not even own it in the first place... for 19 yrs of my life... i never owned love...

i chose not to believe that the most important things that keep me going are all gone...
i kept dreaming of the impossible...
now i have come to understand...
do not dream when you know it will never come true... it will only make life miserable...
how to dream... when you have nothing...
i know it shall never come back and i would never own such thing...

i am no cinderella... and my life is no fairytale...
but only a empty shell...

i shall stop dreaming...
not anymore...

now i finally understand

2006-08-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

now i finally understand...

it took me so many years to understand something so simple...
don't dream when you know it will never happen... it will only make you miserable...

for so many years in my live i have been dreaming... dreaming of the impossible...
if only i had knew...
maybe i would no be so miserable...

now i know... a can never have a cinderella's life...

auntie who is in love with korean drama...

2006-08-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

i am that auntie...
have been watching korean drama these few days...
laughing and crying as the story goes on...
haha... cannot believe i will like korean drama...
there are so many show i want to watch espcially by Lee Dong Gun...
haha...
he so ke ai...
been watching him act in the drama "Xing Niang 18 Siu"
yah... TV got show before one... but missed it... so went to rent the vcd to watch and now i have been so addicted to him, the actress and the show... super cute lo... haa...
no time to blog... watch show... and Major Project is starting to kick off... so i think i will have lesser time to watch my drama...

*gosh! i feel like a 50 year old o-ba-sang... who like korean drama... oh! winter sonata... here i come... wait for me!!... jewel in the palace... haha*

SIAO

more MVs

2006-08-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

can you believe it... 4 posts in a day... WHAO! record breaking...
and whats more... all are videos...

1. Fan Yi Chen - Love Story

Fan Yi Chen looks different from the past...
more of the bad boy look liao... and more fit... haha

2. Tanya - Beautiful Love

Love's beautiful...
This song is written by the F.I.R's guitarist ah qin
and is for F.I.R de Faye... they are an item...
what a match make in heaven...

3. Tanya - Zhang Yan Fa

her songs in this album is nice...
better den her previous genre of music...

4. Fan Yi Chen - Shuo Bu Chu De Wen Rou

another Fan Yi Chen's Song...
the MV is the Xing Ping Guo Le Yuan trailer...
the story line looks like the same one...
rich boy feel in love with poor pretty girl...
but den dunno for what they break up...
ha...i can be director

5. Tong En - Yi Xia Xia

tong en... nice song...

6. F.I.R - Fei Xing Bu Luo

FIR is back... with their new song!! NICE

Touching Mvs

2006-08-12T16:23:00.000+08:00

was watching MVs in Youtube when i found some MVs which never fail to touch my heart and make me tear... all have something in common... everlasting love..

1. Lin Jun Jie - Hui You Na Me Yi Tian

2. S.H.E - Wo Ai Ni

Singapore Fireworks Festival - New Caledonia

2006-08-12T16:03:00.000+08:00

my third video of Singapore Fireworks Festival... and also the video that i am the most pleased with...

Very nice...

Rihanna - Unfaithful

2006-08-12T15:46:00.000+08:00

i feel in love with this song...

Rihanna - Unfaithful

Story of my life Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company

He's more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true

and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be... a murderer

I feel it in the air
as I'm doing my hair
preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
reluctantly
as if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
where I'm about to go
and we know it very well

cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be...
a murderer

Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
and Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore ooohh(anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be... a murderer (a murderer)

No no no

Yeah yeah yeah

fun quiz... (cont)

2006-08-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

again... something which i find interesting and quite true

You Are An ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What's Your Personality Type?

hmm... you will see me on the next star awards...

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 48%

You have a decent shot at being a multimillionaire. Surprised?
You're confident and a hard worker. Keep it up!

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

damn it!!

You Are Sunset

Even though you still may be young, you already feel like you've accomplished a lot in life.
And you feel free to pave your own path now, and you're not even sure where it will take you.
Maybe you'll pursue higher education in a subject you enjoy - or travel the world for a few years.
Either way, you approach life with a relaxed, open attitude. And that will take you far!

What Time Of Day Are You?

hmm... true...

You Are 10% Boyish and 90% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

i like this...

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

How Are You In Love?

no lehs... not true... to some extend.. the first and last paragraph not true lo

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

true true true true... very true!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

true true true true... TRUE!!!

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

muHahA

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

u heard that... i am caring... haha... true...

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted
and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also
are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.
You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around
waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little
more peaceful.

What's Your Element?
hmm...

to be cont. ...

fun quiz (cont.)

2006-08-04T09:34:00.000+08:00

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

do you see me this way?

fun quizzes

2006-08-04T01:39:00.000+08:00

You are 80% Aries

How Aries Are You?

Very Aries... i am

You Are 20% Obsessive

You're less prone to obsessive thoughts than the rest of the world...
While you do get hung up from time to time, you're excellent at clearing your mind.

How Obsessive Are You?

hmm...

Your True Love Is a Scorpio

Why you'll love a Scorpio:

Strong and sexy, Scorpio will overpower you into falling in love (before you even realize it!).
You'll love being swept away by Scorpio - into a world of insane passion.

Why a Scorpio will love you:

You don't mind letting your Scorpio take the reigns, as long as you know you're truly cared for.
Loyal and devoted, you would never do anything to set off insanely jealous Scorpio.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

!!!... jer is a scorpio... ha... coincidental or fated

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

i love rain

losta things... in short

2006-08-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

there are lots of things to tell...

firstly... MY ATTACHMENT IS OVER...!!
but i am going back to the office to work in part time basis... until end aug...

seondly... i am happy... cos we finally talked online for so so long... an hr plus i think... hahhaa i manage to ask the ques!! "how do u feel about me?" and guess wad he say....

me: dun tell u... *hrmpt* ... guess

but i think i am still a step away from my dream...

thirdly... i am going on a holi... dunno where yet... place is still not confirmed...

finally... i think i like my life now... and i am on diet! hahaha.. wish me luck...

*what a short summary of things i want to say*

foodie!!

2006-07-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

nice pizza to intro to u all...

OISHI JAPANESE PIZZA... !!!...
http://www.oishipizza.com/menu.htm

dunno nice a not... maybe trying tomolo... but the testimonials by those who tried are good...

*sLuRp*

towards the end...

2006-07-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

SIP coming to an end le... still got a few more weeks left... some how i think i will miss it...
it started out to be a boring job as i get to noe the people a bit better... i found them to be very interesting and fun people... so jovial and humourous... the boss and the big boss all very nice people (provided they are not rushing for the deadline). Although the boss is sometimes a bit demanding while the big boss look a bit fierce, they are really nice people...

Hmm... will have a long break after this... then will start sch again le... hai... scat abt FYP dunno how will it go... hmm... hope everything goes smoothly...

i cannot wait to grad... hahaa...

recently online... i told may... i think i should ask jer one day when he is online abt it... but den in the end... i backed out... shit me lo... wad a coward... haha... sometimes when the words are just in ur mouth but u just dunno how to say it... and you have no choice but to swallow them back... it feels so terrible... and may told me...
may: Jer so boring... y u like him... u deserve someone better
me: hui mehs... i think ok ma... maybe opposite attract...

haha... actually i oso agree la... jer is a bit boring le... but maybe is because i dunno him well yet... maybe he is really interesting and adventurous de lehs... but i dun think so la... *opps*

hmm... been rather happy this whole week... hope my mood will stay this way...

duhz

2006-07-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

when its never meant to be... JUST GIVE UP!
dun be too persistent... GIVE UP!

I LIKE YOU... what about you?

satisfied

2006-07-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

feels good to tok to a friend whom you have not spoken to for a long long time and never seen for almost a decade... haha... kidding... not that long la...

happy to learn that she's fine and well...

hope to see you soon...

shall i move on...?

2006-06-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

maybe its time i should move on...
learn to forget and move on...
find someone who treasure you... instead of clinging on hopes that would not even happen...
there are people around you who treasure and love you... unless you give them a chance...

some things are deeply imprinted on you memory lane...
its not so difficult to forget...
even knowing that miracles would not happen... you pray for them to happen...
let fate decide my life... if what is meant to be... let it be...

maybe i should stop clinging on to hopes... fruitless hopes...
there are no hopes in my life... there is only reality...
and the reality is...
ITS IMPOSSIBLE...

sometimes when you know its impossible...
you somehow wanna prove it wrong...
you wanna go against fate..
which is something really stupid...

its a waste of time...

*ps: i dunno what i am writing... tots are all scattered... but i hope you all understand*

don't...

2006-06-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

title: don't

don't victimised yourself to make us look like the bad guy when the bad guy is you...
don't make us the spare tyre of ours when your real friend is busy...
don't make lies to cover up your real motive...

i am disappointed in you...
i wonder which word you say is true which aren't...
i wonder how sincere are you in being our friend...

i don't like saying something bad about a friend...
but now, i do not know what friend are you...
are you still my friend?
sometimes you can be so good... yet sometimes so ugly...
how i wish all these where just a dream...
when i wake up... all are over... but sadly it isn't...
i don't know how to face you in the future...
the friend whom i had fond memories of... or the one that made in utterly disappointed...
i don't know...
i don't want to loose a friend like you.. but sometimes i wish i can...
i don't think a broken glass would be the same as a new one...
i don't think a broken string tied together would be the same again... it will have a knot...
i don't know if i can forgive...
i don't know...
i really don't know...

are we still friends after all these?

if i could hit the restart the button..
would history repeat itself...
or would we learnt from history...?

opps!

2006-05-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

title: opps!

sorry... long time no post thing le...
and i think i mention the last time i post that when i post the next time... i will add foto... but den... i dun think can le.. cos i using laptop batt now... so got limted time... sorry... but i promise promise promise... next time...

ppl: "everytime say next time one... chey!"

sorry arhs...

haha...

attachment really draining me out... hai...

seconds are getting longer...
minutes are getting longer...
hours are getting longer...
days are getting longer...
weeks are getting longer...
months are getting longer...
MY HAIR IS GETTING LONGER...haha

i don't think everyne is exactly enjoying it...
me too...

and u know what... i juz found out my uncle company oso got ppl from my course go dere... sobs... why not me?? if i go... den my uncle will be my supervisor... haha
my life will be damn good... the xiao gong zu (little princess)... haha... nobody can ask me do this do that... i can come late late... go home early... haha... nobody dare say a thing... everybody muz respect me.... i think i will be the happiest intern...
I AM ON TOP OF THE WORLD....

imagine...
everyday... when u go office... everybody all pai ur ma pi... haha
u can order them around
do what you want...
watch other intern slog... haha
den can have long long lunch break... haha
SHIOK ARHS!

ppl: *slap* "come back to reality!"
me: "aiyo!... damnz... dream onli..."

alL the best to you all... and to me...

to jas: another one month plus more and everything will end le... good luck and all the best... hope i can meet wif u soon...

labour day...

2006-05-01T16:50:00.000+08:00

title: labour day...

i still remember... last years labour day was sch holi... then i will be going for operation on the second day after labour day...

how time flies... and now here i am... having attachment....

i wonder next year's labour day... where will i be... what am i doing... what have happened over the past one year...

the past one year... was a rather... hmm... a sickly one... took the most number of MCs in my whole life... the numberof times i have seen the doctor was also one of the highest in my whole 19 years of life... the amount of money spend on medical fee was the most... more than the total amount of shopping bills accumulated in my 19 years... stayed in the hospital alot oso... see the specialist oso alot... eating medicine also alot... whao...

amazed by how time flies...

reading my frens blog... all having their attachment... it seems like they are not having a great time... neither am i... its simply boring... *yawn* but i think the colleagues are not so bad... hope my judgement are not wrong...

been missing out all the fun in life since attachment started...
no time for shopping... no time for alot o things like meeting with frens... long time never see may... jas... veron... eunice... siew huang... aili...
actually i got time... onli no strength... xin you yu er li bu zhu...

i just hope that by the next labour day... life would be very interesting... hope so... but like a chinese proverb which says... jing tian bu zhi ming tian shi... which means you would not noe what is installed for you tomolo... so i think better not think too much about the future... think think a bit can but dun draw up too many plans... if not if something not so good happen ike accident which kill you *CHOY!*... you will without accomplishing your bombastic plans... hahaha... *pardon me... i am talking cock*

went to zoo ystd... very fun... haha.. i love the zoo... i love the animals... i hate th poo poo smell... haha... then when to acritchie thus morning to walk the treetop walk... i isn't so nice like ppl sa lehz... i think it is so so la... but then walk until my leg break lo... so many steps to climb... so many road to walk just for that five minutes of "paranomic" view... what a waste of time... haha but the lunch of teochew porridge was absolutely fantastic...

want to post pic.. but lazy... haha next time la... just hope it is soon... haha... i've got busy schedule... hAha...

long long time no see...

2006-04-28T21:30:00.001+08:00

title: long long time no see..

its been a long long time since i update.. its ben so long that i simply forgot my username... have to trial and eror for i dunno how many times den got the correct one...

attachment been nothing but boring...
ahaha
but its ok at least...

really tired... nothing to say oso...
ahaha

read this bloggy... i think i is realy nice...
those who noe about this ex-RGS girl who got tongue cancer... hai... poor thing...
http://onlyskindeep.blogspot.com

long long time no see...

2006-04-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

title: long long time no see..

its been a long long time since i update.. its ben so long that i simply forgot my username... have to trial and eror for i dunno how many times den got the correct one...

attachment been nothing but boring...
ahaha
but its ok at least...

really tired... nothing to say oso...
ahaha

read this bloggy... i think i is realy nice...
those who noe about this ex-RGS girl who got tongue cancer... hai... poor thing...
http://onlyskindeep.blogspot.com

disappointing...

2006-04-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

title: she's done it...

i am so so disappointed...
how can they use a life as a stake to gamble for their future...
i dunno if that was their motive in the first place... to use that life to gamble for ther future...
now they lost...
a life is gone...

i dunno why but i cuts deep inside me...
some people want to come to this world but not have the chance to do so...
but others chose to terminate them...
how contradicting...

a note to the person i am refering to on the top:
you noe who you are...
i dunnoe if all this is the truth or a lie (but since things have come to this ending... i must be true le)
but this is what i really want to tell you no matter if it is true a not
i am not blaming you or reprimanding you...
like i said... its over...
all over... start afresh and i will give you my support in whatever you do...
cos... thats what jie meis are for...
and i will still be your friend even if the whole world turn their back on you...
i will still be your loyal friend even if our thinking is different...
cos opposite always attract...
i will always be your best buddy and sister
cos... i accept who you are
start afresh...
what you loose today will be what you gain tommorrow...

but what is done is done...
it cannot be rewind...
if life could rewind... ...
i would want to write my life again...

i dunno why but things are so gloomy for me recently...
being cheated...
being so naive
being so stupid

thinking that this world is so good... when it is a cruel reality
thinking all people are righteous when everyone is cunning and evil
thinking all people are honest when everyone is decieving each other...

but no matter what...
life goes on...

and this SUCKS

do i look like him?

2006-04-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

title: do i look like him... ?

recall: do you remember super sunday show? there is a section of the show where contestants compare their faces with some famous celebrity or people?

today... the contestant would be me...

wei kiat say i look like ernest... the guy whom i sit beside with during sec 4...
do i look like him...?

OBVIOUSLY NOT!

don't believe...

LOOK HERE!

this is me...

this is ernest...

DO I LOOK LIKE HIM?!

me: "TELL ME NO!"

things couldn't be any worse...

2006-04-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

title: things couldn't be any worse

goD! i am starting my internship next week... nervous... nervous... nervous...
being posted to a company in kemaganan(spell wrong but u noe where i mean)... it is consultancy firm and the executive director is a malay... the company has onli five employee *gasp*

i will be working from 9 - 6.15 on weekdays and I HAVE TO WORK ON SATURDAYS...
WHY?! i am onli paid 440 Sing Dollars not US Dollar... slog like mad... hope there will be a pay imcrease... or at least not work on saturdays...?!

haiyo... hope things get better soon... hope the colleagues are good
the boss is good
everything is good...
life would den be good
good good good good... *dream on*

alamak! why lidat?!

2006-03-28T01:22:00.000+08:00

title: alamak! why lidat?!

liew... why lidat...
play until last level liao jiu die...
NOT FAIR...
NOT FAIR...

pointless entry

2006-03-25T16:07:00.000+08:00

title: pointless entry

this entry is pointless.
just wanted to kill time.
life is boring.

raining. lazy to go out.
dunno where to go.
no money oso.

b'dae coming.
hope got nice present
good food
and
lotsa fun

like i said... ths entry is pointless...
haha...

Commonwealth Games 2006 - Melbourne

in malaysia big foot was spotted recently. in melbourne big mouth is captured by camera

whao!

Singapore Fashion Festival 2006

*poof*

bad sushi...

2006-03-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

title: bad sushi

ha... friday!!!... i love fridays...
went out today... go bugis... suntec... marina square... haha... quite alot of places... but just browse browse onli...
i saw this skirt at fox in marina square which is quite nice... S$39... eunice say very ex... hmm... maybe someone can sponsor?? (for your info... size 40... flowery cloth at the rim of the skirt...) haha... the beach bag at fox oso quite not bad...

went to suntec the fountain of wealth dere de japanese restaurant to eat... the set meal is onli $5 bucks... from 3-5pm onli... dirty cheap... haha... oso quite nice... got rice with beef, salmon, or whatever your choice, then got the dumpling, miso soup and a glass of drink... cheap rite... den me and eunice oso ordered sushi... but not really very nice... the lobster inari taste weird and the salmon sushi not fresh... been having tummy ache after eating them... FUCK... although onli $1.90 a plate oso no need so cheap stake give not freah de sashimi ma... $1.90 not money issit.. luck onli stomache onli... if something worse how... go sue until u no pants wear arhs... ha...

visited my aunt at sgh today... and she is doing great... haha... very good... radiant looking... and the meal the serve can choose one... haha last time i stay in NUH oso B1 ward ma... but i cannot choose lehz... i everyday for 3 meals all eat porridge unitl i have to ask my mother bring food for me to eat... pathetic... lucky the B1 ward got their own toilet... can use their toilet ot do my big business... *stupid sushi*

saturday tomolo but haven made any solid plans on wad to do...
sad sad... feel like going mlaysia... genting... but impossible lah... mother not free...

speaking of my mummy. she said that she wanna retire next year after i grad...
wah...
dun wan la...
like that stay at home nothing to do very easy to get senile... later got lao ren chi dai zhn very saddening one lo... cannot recognise me...
haha... but i dun think wun b that bad la... at least she got more time to do what they want...
see her lo... decision depends on her...

duhs... attachment starting soon... scared...
hope everything goes well...
*praying hard*

have a great weekend ahead peeps...

birthday gift

2006-03-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

title: birthday gift

birthday is just a week plus away...
i feel like i am getting very old liao...
anyway... i am turning 19...
soon would be 21...
den 25... getting married to rich and handsome doctor... living in some high end landed property or condominium...
den 27... having kids probably 2...
32. have my first million...
35 be very very successful and xin fu...
40. still very successful and xin fu...
45. again, still very successful and xin fu...
50. retire...
52. go around the world...
55. i don't noe... maybe look after grandchildren??

haha.. think too much le ... but its always better to have a plan wad...
people: "ya... building castle in the air"

anyway... more impt thing now is my birthday presents...
all the present my frens given me up to this date was really fabulous... but good things are never-ending one... hahaha

jas said that the wish list i wrote last time was very ex... alot of $$ den can bbuy... which is rather true la... so i have decided to go for more budget stuff la... more appropriate for non working people like us... hahaha

so here it goes...

board shorts from roxy, flash & splash, or any other selling such stuff de store...
skirts from blossom... they have outlets at marina square, cathay cineleisure, and i think bugis (prefer shorter ones)
bags... Big Big one... if possible i want two... one sling one (more casual) and another formal one... (more like handbag... but must be BIG)
i cannot think off... hmm... but will think of it soon.. cos i am going shopping tomolo... hahhaa... see wad i wan... hehe... maybe hair salon voucher? do they have that? kimage... jean yip... chapter 2... monsoon?

*if you want get board shorts or skirts for me... i prefer hip huggin ones... hip size... 32... waist... cannot say... 20++ ... but dun cut away the tag la... just in case too big or too small can go change... price doesn't matter... really... got the xing jiu hao le... hahaha..

Thanks...

tomolo... my aunite going for operation liao... i think is knee replacement surgery... sounds very er xin... imagine them taking out the knee den put new one in... GROSS!... can't they name the procedure to something more hao ting... at least wun sound so gorry... Eeekks....

she will be staying in SGH for i think 5 days... what a bad hospital... so eerie... i don't know why i hate SGH so much... looks old and very rundown... like some haunted od hospital you se in movies or horror movie... must be seing too much show liao... but i think i am so scat of that place is because it has a mortuary... haha... Eeeeww... all hospital have mortuary but i think SGH's mortuary is the scariest... cos' people who die in all sorts of very bad circumstances (murder, suicide, accident) all send to there for forensic investigation... haha... the place very "dirty"... haha.. hope all these are not true... actually oso dunno true a not... just wad i think onli la... scare myself... haha

but just hope everything goes on well and fine... all the best...

weather very hot the past few days... getting some rain recently... nothing much, just a pointless comment