disappointing...

title: she's done it...

i am so so disappointed...
how can they use a life as a stake to gamble for their future...
i dunno if that was their motive in the first place... to use that life to gamble for ther future...
now they lost...
a life is gone...

i dunno why but i cuts deep inside me...
some people want to come to this world but not have the chance to do so...
but others chose to terminate them...
how contradicting...

a note to the person i am refering to on the top:
you noe who you are...
i dunnoe if all this is the truth or a lie (but since things have come to this ending... i must be true le)
but this is what i really want to tell you no matter if it is true a not
i am not blaming you or reprimanding you...
like i said... its over...
all over... start afresh and i will give you my support in whatever you do...
cos... thats what jie meis are for...
and i will still be your friend even if the whole world turn their back on you...
i will still be your loyal friend even if our thinking is different...
cos opposite always attract...
i will always be your best buddy and sister
cos... i accept who you are
start afresh...
what you loose today will be what you gain tommorrow...

but what is done is done...
it cannot be rewind...
if life could rewind... ...
i would want to write my life again...

i dunno why but things are so gloomy for me recently...
being cheated...
being so naive
being so stupid

thinking that this world is so good... when it is a cruel reality
thinking all people are righteous when everyone is cunning and evil
thinking all people are honest when everyone is decieving each other...

but no matter what...
life goes on...

and this SUCKS