stressed up

title: stressed up

2 paper down... 1 more to go... and i am so stresse up over the week... so many things happen since last week till now...

some problem with friends family... problem wif friend... friend relative die... exams....

wah..

i can collapsed under them...

wad really is killing me is the exams... and some fucking problem that i wan to resolve...

next monday my last paper... den i free be free...

about that F-problem (fucking problem)... i guess it will just keep them shut in my heart first... but the feeling is just so "kao wei"... how would u feel if someone say something in front of u and say another behind... feel fucked up right... thats wad i am feeling since i noe about it which was i think last week... can u imagin how pek chek i am... one thing i cannot tahan... people who are "two headed"... since you got "yi jian" about it just say it in my face... dun pretend that everything is "wu suo wei" den complain it to another person... although i am still at fault in the beginning but like wad i say is "qing you ke yuan"... but WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING SO DIFFERENT TO SOMEONE... WHY?!... what have i done to deserve this... although it is something very trivial (i am not making a mountain out of a mole hill...) do you noe how upset i am... i just dunno why must you do this... what ever unhappiness you have, say it in my face...

WHY?!

i have been s upset over the week although i never said it t anyone... maybe complain a little.. but what i am going through is more than that little complain... i just feel so unjustified... is like "han yuan er si" that feeling...

how i wish i can clarify this matter with you... but sometimes i just wanna forget it cos i noe i will not end he way i wish it would be... which is be like the same as last time... i dun wan to loose a friend... but i noe everything will change i confront you... i dun want that to happen...

i dunno wad to do....

i am in a dilema...

on one hand i wan this matter to be justifed...

on the other i want things to be settle amicably and we will still be like last time but its certainly inpossible...

WHAT SHOULD I DO...

dilema...

i need enlightenment...

anyway i am partially a fault too... it started because of me...

but i dun deserve it...

DO I?